Just an update for anyone who gives a rat's ass:

I am incredibly unwell. Like, really really bad mentally. It's a few days from the anniversary date and I'm batshit crazy, not sleeping, eyes big as fuck all the time, literally forgetting who I am or how I got places. Ears ringing, eyes don't want to focus, body numb, just bad bad stuff.

Like, imagine if you zoned out and your body just like, kept going. On it's own. Without you.

That's what's going on right now.

It's weird because I'm still capable of doing all kinds of complex shit, I'm just like, not there right now.

Currently drinking valerian root and tamerind tea to knock it down a bit.